Full Circle

It occurred to me today that one year ago yesterday, I had surgery. For a month prior to that I was having some pretty terrible back pain. I ached when I sat, layed down, got up, etc. I just couldn't get comfortable. I had had this pain before. Seven years ago I had surgery for the same pain. I had a history of endometriosis and figured it was another bout of that. So I consulted with my gynecologist and he did a routine operation. Who knew what he would find and fix would completely change my whole life.


For weeks the pain was mainly in my back and no other place. But several days before the surgery I started aching on my left side. I had this "pulling" feeling. It was kind of a dull, annoying pain that wouldn't go away. Two weeks before surgery I had an ultrasound done on my uterus. Routine. It showed nothing but a small 2 cm ovarian cyst. In fact, it was so minor that the doc didn't even tell me there was a cyst. He didn't even plan on bothering it because most cysts go away on their own. However, when he did the surgery the cyst had tripled in size and was a whopping 6 cm in diameter. It was the size of a baseball and it was pulling my ovary and uterus to the left. Hence the "pulling" feeling.


My doc also fixed a round ligament. Basically, your round ligament helps hold the uterus in place. It's kind of small and low. Mine had kind of bent and was attached to my abdominal wall. It should go straight from the uterus to your abdominal wall. Mine was connected to my abdominal wall in two places. He fixed that.


He also tested my bladder for a disease that I was diagnosed with during the last surgery. It was true. I still have the bladder disease.



So basically I had three random problems that together helped pave the way for something so incredible in my life. God was at work.


Brad and I came off birth control in the June of 08. We weren't really trying, but we weren't preventing it. We were just going to let God do His thing. If He blessed us with children that was incredible. If He didn't, then we weren't going to stress about it. I didn't want to be one of those people that builds all my hopes and dreams on whether I see one line or two each month. I just didn't want to live life like that. So from June until November we hadn't gotten pregnant. I got pregnant two months after the surgery.



It's amazing to look back a year ago and see how God was at work in my life and I had no clue. Who knew that a small 2 cm cyst was probably blocking the way for my conception of having a child. Who knew that it would TRIPLE in size in two weeks so that the doc could see it and remove it. Who knew. God knew.






Isn't it amazing to see things come full circle. God IS Full Circle and He IS Amazing.